sherlyn's musings.

12:14 PM
Wednesday, December 31, 2003

listening to // jaded :: mest featuring benj
feeling // blah blah blah

it's gonna be the new year tonight. it's gonna be 2oo4. it's gonna be the end of 2oo3. lotsa things are gonna change from tomorrow. well, for one it's gonna be my studies. no more daydreaming during chemistry, no more sleeping during chinese. i'll try my best to ace my subjects.

so... enough of "i wills and i trys." recap of the year! the start of 2oo3.. not much impression. except that netball b div got into trouble with elaine lim. why!? cos we're not performing so she will disband us. yays. let us all celebrate. *note the sarcasm. mm, got to know a certain gloria. chin gu yong won hee? yeah. february was an eventful month. got to know stuff which made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. march was an extremely eventful one too. joined kayaking with evelyn. had level camp in desaru. got to know chu. had the whole SARS epdemic thing. long school break! and a special person came into my life. that night was extremely special. and i still believe in *. . : [ - e t e r n a l . b l i s s - ] : . . *. april was cool. still had some time off from school cos of SARS. had time to go around singapore and watch movies with a different mindset.

may was groovy! had a radio DJ workshop with power 98! got to meet JA and jeremy ratnum. got autographs too! and got a free evanesance cd from them. yay! had a kick-ass chalet too, with the insane 6 hours of mahjong. got to know fred a little better too. everyone needs an evil twin brother. fellow sims unite! ha. got a new netball coach, her name's peilin. vesak day was special. june was alright. busy busy busy with extra lessons and netball trainings. but i still got to spend quality time. got hooked to french songs cos of xun too. french is just so romantic. july was SYF. didn't join them at NYGH. but they got bronze, elim wasn't too happy with drama. to hell with her. but our band got gold!! so proud of kat and kaiqing. special someone got bestowed upon with a great responsibility. gloria told me bout the 100th day thing. thanks for the powerpoint! august was sweeeeet! had fiesta@fairfield. busy busy but fun! *grins* had my birthday too! along with yonghan, charlotte and zhu zheng. national day was fun. esplanade roof . swatch skin . kallang riverside park . fireworks . saranghaeyo~ and it was happy birthday to chu. chill out sessions at starbucks with ah bel, jamie, dee, joseph and samuel. saw mars on the 27th. happy birthday to jow. something else happened and tears fell.

september was nerve wrecking. had SPE netball carnival and peilin stopped coaching us. she was a really great coach. had my hongkong taitai partner mokxy. us, ourselves and our hongkong accent. =D my arowana died. my hamster got lost. pirates of the carribean was memorable. but as they say, all good things must come to an end. my dreams got shattered. but it's alright, you're still close to my heart. it is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. had my drama exam. was as nervous as hell. got to know kenneth. hey, he's a nice guy. with loadsa good music too. at least he doesn't go "huh? paul oak-wha?!". haha. oct was equally scary. EOYs. blah. horrid crap. november was okay... nothing much except for class barbeque. fun fun! thanks again ben. and of course training, training, training. trekking at belumut! sometimes got leech, sometimes no leech, i don't like leech. and of course eve and rach. dec was sortta eventful. netball day camp and chalet. renaissance at sji. stayover at kat's. but i had a lousy lonely christmas. but at least i had dan to keep me sane. and i didn't blow my bill as bad as i expected. got know to tang.

aiiite, that's my 2oo3. haha. i seem to remember more good stuff than bad stuff. which is good. hope my 2oo4 will be another swell year. dear God, thank you so much for everything that you have blessed me with this year. be it good or bad because i know you have plans for me. thank you for all the new friends you blessed me with... dan, kenneth, xun, tang, songkai chu, bryan, kevin, galv, kaiqing, eve, rach and julz. thank you for bringing me closer to old friends... the c div of 'o2 especially tiff goh, aud, gladys hoo, mokxy and auntie teo, my juniors, fred, kat, celina, victor, jow, and cheuk. thank you for helping me maintain my friendship with other friends and aquaintances. thank you for all the lessons you taught me this year. thank you for teaching me how to love. thank you for peilin. in your mighty name i pray, amen.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

2:44 PM
Tuesday, December 30, 2003

listening to // stop living a lie :: david sneddon
feeling // indescribable.

i've always wanted to put this up for christmas but i keep forgetting. everytime i read it, i just can't help but cry because it's so touching. well, i hope this story touches your heart for the remaining 7 days of christmas. here goes...

On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the gifts I didn't manage to buy earlier. When I saw all the people there, I started to complain to myself: "it is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go...'' Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year. How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it. Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if kids really play with such expensive toys. While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who this doll was for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: 'Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?' The old lady replied: 'You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.' Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I started to walk towards him and asked who he wanted to give this doll to. ''It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her." I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there.' His
eyes were so sad while saying this. "My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy say that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the
doll with her to give it to my sister". My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket". Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me: 'I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me." I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister". then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy. 'What if we checked again, just in case if u have enough money?'' "Ok'' he said. 'I hope that I have enough.' I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money. The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money' then he looked at me and added: 'I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose.'' ''You know, my mummy loves white roses.'' A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl.

The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state.The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away. I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

2:34 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2003

listening to // yu jian :: stefanie sun
feeling // lazy

aiite! i got my comp back! well, it came yesterday but i was too lazy to blog. sue me. so, christmas wasn't a big event for me. though i hoped it was. it was so boring. i did nothing but shuttle from the kitchen to the tv room. although i haven't lived for very long, but i can say that this christmas is the boring-est - EVER! my eyes were practically glued to the screen and my butt was super glue-ed to the couch. the parts of my body constantly on the move were my fingers. switching channels every now and then and sms-ing dan, jow and eve. i hope i don't blow my bill man. eeks. went to uncle's house for "party" after that. so i thought, yay. finally party. but when i got there... MY FAMILY AND RELATIVES WENT THERE JUST TO SEE HIS KID~!!! omgggg. so i stoned on the couch and watched a christmas wish. and after 'bout 2 hours we went home. yay, exciting huh? went down to parkway for lunch. yoshinoya! yums. then went to meet chu to do homework. didn't touch any. ended up writing letter to chu instead. didn't have the mood to write so i ended up writing rubbish. went home. and i'm alone again. but it's alright, they had clay aiken on CNA. yeah!!! sms-ed dan for bout an hour or so until he decided not to reply me. well, that's my christmas. told you it was boring.

what my friend did was extremely shocking. did not expect her to do such a thing. wonder how the guy would feel if he knew that she was two timing him. note to self: love in a nutshell. is two imperfect persons coming together. some teens experience glimpses of it, but because they change and move on to have new goals, dreams and experience, most do not develop it further. true love changes over time but lasts. love means being there for somebody, and knowing that there's somebody there for you no matter what. love takes time and hard work - lots of it. but in the mean time, i'll just iron out my twisted school life first. i wish a miracle brick would drop from the heavens and hit elaine lim square on her head. she seriously needs to wake up from her regimented thinking. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER!!?? model answer to that question: everything.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

11:57 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2003

watching // finding nemo :: disney
feeling // tired

hi all, hi all. i'm at kathryn's house using her laptop again. considering the fact that my compie's still at the doctor's. it's gonna be there for five working days! =( christmas without my compie. but it's alright! hmm, nothing to say amazingly. normally i'd have lots to rant and rave about. argh, i'll just spare the world of my ranting. will go watch nemo now. i love dory! ohoh!! i got a dory keychain from kathryn for christmas! =D can't find the camera now. so will load the keychain picture up later la.

[edit]it's 5.30 in the morning now... and i haven't even slept. well, i'm feeling too hyper. must be all the chocolate i consumed. sugarhigh. heh. but there's nothing to do now. absolutely nothing! kat and celina are sleeping. and i've been on the com for who knows how long doing nothing but talking on MSN and gunbound. well, at least i'm not a chick now. ha. oh, i found two more forgotten primary school friends on friendster - magdalene and stefanie. found eunice too. didn't know she ended up in st margs. wonder if she still remembers me. but didn't add her just in case she'll go "who's this mad woman claiming she knows me. ew, freaky." hur, whatever. still trying to find cheryl. but she sortta disappeared. she was my so called best friend. used to do loadsa stuff together. and she's darn good in art. and i remember i used to play with her cherry cardigan. haha. childlike innocence indeed. that was primary school that is. just read ah bel's blog. she seems like she's shopping like mad in hong kong. the temptations! if only i could grab my visa, get a ticket to hongkong and shop like mad. the food too. remember i used to go nuts over some super big fishball with bel. and some candy floss thingy. i call it the hongkong sweet. ha. darn, should have told bel to help me get posters of those hong kong actors. waaah, drop dead gorgeous. shuai dai le. *drools* I WANNA GO TO HONGKONG NOW!!!! dream on sherlyn, whatever. oh well, gonna play more gunbound. still losing my games. i'm earning money, albeit being pathetic. i'm such a no lifer.[/edit]

[edit edit]hello hello again to all my friends, i'm glad you came today. our fun and learning never ends, here's what we did today. lol, i just got that from barney. =D so, it's 11.50 am now. only slept for five hours. and during that period of time. waaaaah, got drama. all thanks to celina foo. well i was wide awake so i can't say that she woke me up. she just distracted me from gunbound and i got shot like dead on. but that's beside the point. she was curled up in the toilet and sitting in front of the toilet bowl with a plastic bag. then kat and i joined her in the toilet so she won't feel lonely and maybe if she needed help we'll be there. i felt so much like a drug addict. yeah, kat's dad is bringing us out for lunch. will continue the saga another time. of you can ask if you see me. happy christmas and merry new year! not gonna do fancy html anymore.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

9:26 PM
Friday, December 19, 2003

listening to // je t'attends :: axelle red
feeling // bloated

ahhhhh. at chu's house updating now. still not used to his keyboard.he just came back from malaysia. NOT FAIR. he got 2 nice swatches. but mine still rocks. plus, it's special too. chu is currently holding his brother's 6220. that fone came out like. 2 weeks ago. *does emileen's version of damn* he dyed his hair too. not very obvious tho. but still, hope he gets caught when school reopens. muahahahaha! evil me. xD oh, and chu has scary grandparents. eeks man. now i know why his mom is like that. and his dad too. scary family he has. wonder if he's scary. almost fell off the chair. whose fault? SHAAAUUUUUUUN. and it's damn dangerous to have shaun chua sit beside you when you're on MSN. wah lao eh . . . .

came back to see my old hammy. it's butt is golden brown! ah, super cute butt. and she lost weight too. wahaha. but still it's damn fat compared to pepper. still wonder where she went. sigh... think she's already gone by now. =..( sobs. well, at least i have my tofu eating goldfishes now. XD they're cute. heh~ aiiite, time to head on home now. gonna have a crayon shin chan marathon tonight. oh, gotta finish my christmas cards too. busy busy busy.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

5:44 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2003

listening to // you raise me up :: becky taylor
feeling // full

becky taylor's voice rocks. =) sherlyn is back!! but not officially. i'm using kathryn's laptop to update. it's still gonna be quite some time till i come back officially. gonna assemble my own cpu so i gotta hunt around for the parts and all. sorry if you miss me guys. hur, whatever. so much have happened. for one, i've done my homework! *beams* well, because i've got nothing to do at home other than bumming in front of the telly. so, re-cap.

watched loveactually on the 11th with aud. loved the show. so sweet!! then went to watch brother bear with the two tiffanys, audrey and cheuk on the 13th. =) the show was nice. typical disney type thing. touching blah blah. sortta cliche tho~ but i still teared a little. actually all of us did. well, sue us - we're girls. heh. the tiffs went home after the movie, cheuk was waited for his dad. aud and i walked down to the esplanade. watched some acapella group singing christmas carols. nice. called chu down to joined us. then went to the chocolate bar. the dark choc rules. sweeet. mm, anyone up for a drink there someday? =) haha.

mmm... kat has to go for tuition soon. will be some time when you'll see me again. so to all reading this... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

7:24 PM
Tuesday, December 09, 2003

listening to // graduation :: vitamin C
feeling // pissed

damn it, shit. something's wrong with my compie so it'll be awhile when i start blogging again. so this will be my last entry for now. mm, nothing much happening for the past two days. it's so darn unproductive. forcing myself to do homework but still so... sian.

had the wierdest, sweetest dream yesterday. may sound stupid. house by the sea, evening, you coming back from work watching sunset. two dogs, two kids, you, me, birthday cake, food fight. that's in my wildest dreams.

**saranghaeyo-

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

10:49 AM
Monday, December 08, 2003

listening to // sugar pie honey bunch :: clay aiken
feeling // refreshed

mmm. finally i feel awake now! took a nap last night but when i woke up i conked out after about an hour. at least i got to talk to you. =D anyways, had year end carnival at KNC yesterday and peilin was guest of honour! and RGS climacool won for the schools. yeah! go RGS! ^_^ mmm, we didn't do very well tho. but it's alright la. the zonals more important. but anyhow, watched peilin play. woaaaah. . . pro. her fake passes rock man. should learn it soon. and then there was this match when rach was playing with peilin. and peilin was playing WA and rach was WD! lol, i think her head must have been in clouds man. when she came out eve and i were like wooooo!! aha... after everything eve and i went down to suntec kenny rogers to eat mac and cheese. waaah, shiok man. then walked around a little... and when i got home i almost died instantly. showered and then went to sleep. didn't know a carnival could sap so much of my energy. aiiite, prolly go do some revision now. maybe i'll go down to kallang tonight to play netball. depends whether i have energy.

[edit]wah, i didn't know being sick saps up so much of your energy. could barely walk around today. felt so weak. like your legs are gonna give way anytime. so i spent most of my time crawling from my bed, to the rocking chair in front of the computer, to the sofa and if need be, to the toilet. i'm sucha bum right? sue me. =D and i was feeling moody today. but a dose of chocolate ice cream helps. endorphins rule! feel great mentally but i feel worse physically now. ughhh... hope i get well overnight. no air con tonight - i'm freezing in front of a fan. and it's only speed 1. -_- where's my pullover when i need it most? in the wash. of all times!!! ah, but i have my trusty sesame street comforter. will wrap myself popiah-style tonight.[/edit]

**i'm missing you. lots.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

12:14 AM
Sunday, December 07, 2003

listening to // i've never been to me
feeling // euphoric

mm, re-blogging because the last entry was like half past six. had training in the morning at tiff's house. the netball court was a little smaller than usual. no wonder it wasn't tiring. mm, shots in were pretty alright. mindy was damn good!! trained and did a little courtwork ourselves because peilin couldn't come down due to rashes. the poor lamb. hope she gets well in time for carnival. FMS2 were doing good, had lotsa fun training with them. while FMS1 looked like they were so stressed and everything. *shrugs* don't know bout them. ended training at around 11.30. and went to get food. then had some disputes between FMS1 and FMS3. sigh, didn't wanna poke my nose into it so went up to tiff's place to get patchy down. she's so adorable! hyper active jack russel. =) wish i could keep a dog. after that played with her for a while before meeting celina and kat at school. watch our school band march and chee wei's bad at giving commands. poor band. just learnt that jie bin's our new DM. woah, that's new.

went to kat's house so kat could get her clothes. then went to get flowers and then to my place. mm, it was fun getting ready and wrapping all the flowers. slacked around for a while then went to shower. while celina was following some vocal training cd to get ready for her talentime auditions. but she ended up laughing instead. -_-" deemed the cd totally useless for her. lol... so dressed up, did my hair and help cfoo do hers. i'm proud of my creations man. =D and when i wanted to get my contacts on, one of them flew somewhere and went on a hunt for it. i nearly cried cos we were running almost late. but thankfully a miracle happened and kat found it!! i love that girl. -hugs- then we were going down for renaissance!!!

mm, was late meeting jow. oops, but victor was late too so nevermind. the first person i saw when we walked in was ken. cel was like shocked and kat was pissed. and stupid me was staring. but i found their reactions quite amusing. ahahaaha... then uh, went to the canteen to find jow. red looks good on him. got tickets and went to the performing arts centre. waaah, first thing that came to my mind was "wah lau eh, damn cold!" regretted not bringing jacket but at least got long sleeves. mmm, went upstairs to get seats. at least i could see you from up there. =) concert was very fun!! totally different from our school's one. interesting... our school ought to learn from them. and the audience was crazy. i liked twinkle twinkle little star especially. and the junior band played chihuahua. geraldson looked damn cool on the drums. saw lotsa familiar people. got to meet you during the interval! hey, you looked great. =) mmm, didn't see kev tho. didn't get to pass him his flower. but it's alright~ mm, oh kaiqing came during the interval. so she's kaiqing!! i've seen her so many times in school. and for some reason, after the interval i was damn tired. was half asleep during the performance and only woke up when vic nudged me cos you had a solo. and i missed it. *does emileen's version of damn* but after that i was like freezing. and then they decided to play spongebob. LOL. it was so cute!!! and i got high after that. started singing along to the song and i think celina was thinking that i was crazy. ahahaha. whole thing ended with school rally, heard the band toast - thankfully from afar now. the school was like so enthu. unlike ours, where elaine lim ends the concert with the history of her life. how boring. =S and all the students would be sleeping or dying to get out. but anyhow, overall it was a new experience for me. and extremely fun. so don't worry cheuk, i'll be there next year!! =D oh and on the way out, i was feeling high and i waved to ken. aha, the whole thing was crazy. didn't expect myself to do that. =P

**clone of an angel-

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

10:00 PM
Friday, December 05, 2003

listening to // angel eyes :: jim brickman
feeling // tired

i am finally home after 3 long gruelling days of senior farewell preparation. at least it was better than last year. at least the things were nicer and prepared well enough to be presented. but i am still rather unhappy over some incidents. especially certain people being utterly tactless and extremely blunt. brains were put in your head so it can be used - not to float around in brain juice. so please THINK before you speak. provoke me and i will lash out at you. if you're unhappy with me, i don't really care. blame it on your own wrong choice of words. you're not even an official netballer. you cried your damn way into netball. maybe i ought to try crying my way into NCC eh? ha. the seniors didn't see anything in you - TOO BAD. so you have no right to boss me around and ask if i was going to "run away from netball" again. so what you're in the stronger team? your freaking defence doesn't even work. you look like a tortoise with your head tucked underneath your hard shell. and your arms flinging everywhere - perfect impersonation of a mad chicken. so work on your moves and passes before you come and give me that stupid smirk just because we're in the weaker team. we will prove it to you. don't you dare look down on us. after sunday, you wouldn't dare. trust me. rawr, i just felt like ranting.

unresolved tensions aside, the chalet was quite fun. but peilin, pat, miss lium and yeeleen couldn't make it down tho. they had selections for nike i think... damn~ but still, we went mad decorating and took alotta crazy pictures... so i will load em up when i get them. had a caterer and pizza for farewell dinner~ the food was quite good - especially the fried rice!! -yums- after that had the presentation and the seniors gave their speeches and all. watched the bachelor and plonked to sleep. aiite, am gonna go sleep now. training tomorrow. match the day after~

**holding back my excitement

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

12:40 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003

listening to // to where you are :: josh groban
feeling // dead beat.

yes i have returned!! muahaha. was supposed to go straight to aussie to stay with uncle richard but stopped over in malaysia cos he had some business thing to attend to. so, stayed at hotel istana. not bad, i like the bathrooms. nice tubs. =) and the area around the hotel was DAMN GOOD. a hell lot of shopping facilities. ying and i were two happy girls. retail therapy rules! bought a lotsa pretty rubberbands, roxy wallet and pencil box, ripcurl slippers, nike shirt, and a quiksilver pencil box for adrian. w0otx. then there was this shopping complex called midpoint valley. waaaaah. . . . there was this pets wonderland inside there and they had pretty crowned tailed pigeons! and this guinea pig... which looks like a teddy bear. soooo cute!!! then uncle dragged me out because he said we contributed enough to malaysia's economy. so went back to the hotel, and surprise surprise! there was this chocolate fudge cake on the table. mmmmms~ was wondering whose it was so called room service. turned out they got the wrong room. so i got to keep the cake! but it was this mok ji wei guy's birthday... but he got another cake so it's alright. hahaha. but anyways, happy belated ji wei~!! and guess what. he turned out to be this guy i met at the ostrich farm. lol. said he was quite cute and ying disturbed me like mad. and she came to a conclusion. that canto-speaking guys with braces appeal to me. -_-" and she started comparing ji wei and him. sheesh. but he beats ji wei hands down. still love him to bits. =)

fresh grass, morning dew, stables, maple, midnight, hay, oats, wood sums up the rest of the story. i love horses. ^_^

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo